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urrg....

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i donated blood today and i nearly passed out...^_^ii how embarassing!! it was because i didn't eat anything during the day except pb&j sandwich in the morning. i thought it wouldn't be so bad for me because, well, i'm durable, but apparently my body thinks otherwise. emily was chortling the whole time because it was the first time she ever saw me so fragile.
so while sitting at their refreshments bar, i started to feel kinda funny and i guess that's what it's like before you pass out or something. kinda like being in a tunnel with a lot of wind passing through. and strobe lights. that'll be an interesting experience to remember because i could use it as reference when i write or draw someone passing out. haha.
actually, it felt really really bad. ick. i feel like such a weakling. coddle me.

*sniffles*

that was sooo sweet i think i'm gonna die. touko kawaii, you rock my socks. waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhh!!!!

kyoya....

<----this is kyoya at his most exploit-y-ness. squeeee!!!!!

KYOYA IS SOOOOOO HOT!!!! omg....episode 24 was just full of kyoya. i've come to love him more than i've ever loved him, i hope this episode was also in the manga because i'd love to just flip through the volume when i wanna see his beauteous face. my favorite scene was probably when he was punching the sofa, mostly because it's such a weird scene. i'm frantically trying to find a icon that conveys all the levels of his personality, but it's hard....let's face it, he's not that popular of a character for iconing because of his lack of real facial expression. ^_^ii

hello

nice song, but the video is soo sad that i can't stand it. waaaaaaaaaaaah!!!

holy moly

i found another site that has tons of manga to download. licensed and not. it even has death note. i'm gonna try reading that.... i guess it's not very organized (i can't find a main homepage), the mangas aren't divided up by anything other than alphabetical letter, but it looks pretty up to date... woohoo! i guess i'm never gonna get anything done. i have to read "canterbury tales" "is there a text in the class" and "the moonstone," but i'm so bad for my health. ohoohohohoh!

UWaaaahh!! update! it's got tons of invalid links...sniffles....and it had so much yaoi stuff....

woohoo!

11 positive reviews!! yes!!!

damn, i swore i would go to sleep earlier...
it's happened. i'm in love with a female manga character. ^_^ii you must be thinking, amy's an idiot and i agree wholeheartedly. actually i'm probably not in love, more like in obsession. i finally got vol7 today and i was going absolutely nuts over the anticipation of seeing it. just sitting in class i was thinking "damn, why do i have to wait to go read it." going crazy. and when i got to work (i reserved it) i was soooo happy.....smiling like a nutcase. but it's sorta not fair because she's drawn to look like a man. whatever. it's a great series, i guess. i take that back, it's a okay series, but it's pissing me off a little due to the redundancy of the stories. ever read Musashi #9? hehe...i guess you probably haven't because it's licensed by CMX which basically doesn't publish popular mangas. But. She. Rocks. i'm also rooting for the male protagonist that's fallen in love with her, but in my heart......haha! i don't even know how i want to end that sentence. sigh...................also, since it's a CMX manga, Borders doesn't stock it, so i can't read it as it comes out. i have to wait for the library to buy it, or buy it myself. damn! but she!! is!! so!! cool!! I wish she were real so she could come and take me by the hand........and save me from those bazooka wielding terrorists too... *laughs*<---sleep induced babble.
night

yawn!

i've finished my PoT porn and if you're interested in what other uses for ice there are you can click on my link. the usual warnings still apply.

OR~~~~~~ i can recruit you to read my doujinshi-1st draft. it's a simple, unimaginative love story which i've poured my heart, soul, and attention into(much to the dismay of my professors). i've roped shawn into reading the first twenty pages. and i've asked emily to read it too, tho when she's going to, i don't know. I've read it many many times and i don't think it's that bad. But it's not particularly good either...^_^ i read these really goood love story oneshots today from "Kimi no Katsu." they made me laugh and go "awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww." friggin' brilliant.

I'm also entertaining the idea of going to the yaoi-con, but then that'll mean that i'll be absolutely alone, which i guess isn't so bad because it is kinda embarassing... It's at the Westin hotel by the airport. the author of one of my favorite books is going to be there!! But i don't have one of her books for a signing and the one i'm interested in isn't coming out till next year. i'm definitely definitely going to buy it. Loveholic rocks!! hmm...should i go? should i? nah....probably not. whatever. i don't need to socialize with other yaoi-freaks. am i a hikikomori? haha! NHK ni Yokoso! purururin~~.


I've got another idea for another oneshot/series potential, which i feel is much much more imaginative. and probably a lot harder than an unimaginative love story. or not, others have attempted the same thing before....hrmm.... it involves death, a crow, and a bowl of ramen. *snorts* not necessarily in that order. haha. maybe it's because of what i'm reading, which is influencing me big time, but i'm detecting a certain style in the way i think/draw....rumiko takahashi i am not.

uuuwwaaaahhh!!!

i broke my precious precious precious cup!! my beautiful ceramic cup with the prancing sheep saying 'bleat." i'm sooo upset!!! i dropped it in the sink and it totallly broke! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaah!!!! and i can't get another one because i bought it at a 10cent shop in taiwan!!! *whimper whimper*

kyaaaa!!! XD

i just read the sweetest manga. it was friggin' long, but it was totally worth it!! i haven't cried like that for such a long time. even though sometimes the character kinda pissed me off, but i thought all in all it was well written and straightforward. hrrrmmm....it was sweet, but would i read it again? probably not....too long for something like that...hrrrmmm..... sooooooo sleepy...

i can't stand it...-_-ii

i was wondering where all the gigs on my laptop went, since i already burned/deleted all that was unnecessary from my torrent list and i still only have 13gb of free memory. sooo...i looked at the next possible suspect, my pictures file which contains my yaoi, negi, naruto, various porno, and miscellaneous manga....damn! it takes up 5gb's on my laptop... i can't believe it....

wahah! i have five positive reviews!

yikes

ggggggggggyyyaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! school's almost starting!!! no more slacking off!!! i'm gonna have to wake up earlier!!! but there ain't no way in hell that i'm sleeping earlier. it's. just. not. possible.

SOoOoOoOoOo...i finally posted part one of my yaoi PoT fanfiction and it's received two positive reviews!! after reading it over, i realize....that my freakin fictional characters have a more interesting sex life than i do. michael has limits to what i can do to his body.....drat. so, if you, my sporadic reader, wish to read it, i'll post a link.

DISCLAIMER: you are not interested in two guys having horny sex, then you should not go to PoT

i have the work schedule that i need now, so i can take all the classes that i need. Eric took my afternoon shift and i appreciate it very very much. but on the other hand, i have to wonder, what was he doing in the afternoon on wednesdays with so much time on his hands? i'm glad i don't have to hunt for more classes or wrangle with my schedule anymore. so now i work M-W from 4-9. a very regular schedule. i like it because i get the extra dollar/hr for working a night shift. so now i'll be earning 400+ dollars for 30 hrs. hurrah!!

hello!

someone had put "sennen no yuki" on the download forums and that makes me absolutely happy. now i don't have to go on irc to download it. woohoo! i've been wanting to read that ever since i found out that hatori bisco had written another one.

school starts really soon and it looks like no one is willing or able to cover for me during the hours that i wouldn't be able to show up at work. ahh...dammit. guess i'll just have to not go to class on wednesdays or something....yeah.. ^_^iii




i've finally finally started to draw my own comic and it's....hard. very hard trying to get the right flow of things and being able to draw what you want the way you want. also, it's a little distracting to draw things on notebook paper, i guess when i do the final draft i'll actually have to go out and get some kind of art paper? but, but it's only going to be some silly doujinshi, so maybe i'll not spend so much money on it. hehheh.... and i wonder if i'll have the guts to show anyone? i'll be very proud of my work (if i ever finish), but it'll probably be very easy to shoot me down... <----insert image of nosediving airplane.

i just told my little sister that i might be moving out and in with michael in like a year and a half and she said "it feels like i'm losing another one..." and i guess that's true. but on the other hand, i don't want to move in with him because it's just something that's suppose to happen. what i mean is: i don't want to be taken for granted. like it's the next given step in the process of life. he's been asking me to move in with him since forever, and i want him to convince me that he wants to be together that badly. and why can't i shrug it off like the last couple of times. am i complicating things? yeah...i am. is it the insecurities and uncertainties which i feel towards our relationship? definitely. will they ever be resolved or will i be able to accept that our relationship has its share of flaws and problems? i dunno. do i care? not now...maybe later...

i just saw the weirdest weirdest thing regarding anime and live-action. so if you're not interested, tough. i watched "princess princess" anime and while i had high expectations for the author because i've read her work, it was still an interesting watch even if it lacked trademark characteristics. BUT now it seems that there is a live-action interpretation of the anime called "Puri Puri D"...and it sounds like it's a little bit more sexual (hmm...wrestling scene). on one hand i'm looking forward to it, on the other.... egad, i've read some baaaaaaad reviews of it. and i don't know how i'll take real live humans doing the yaoi thing...gawd....that sounds really homophobic...

but on the other hand, i think two humans of whatever sex combination, making out, really makes me uncomfortable. i guess i have problems with pda. i just don't know where to look....

sometimes i think i need a break from the family. but i don't feel justified in saying things like that because elaine has to be here all the time too. so then i feel guilty for feeling this way. i wish they would just go somewhere for a couple of days so i won't feel like i'm responsible for this or that. but then, i have no where to go. i don't have friends who want to go anywhere. i don't have a burning desire to go or do anything by myself. i don't even wanna go shopping because that'll make me wanna buy things and i don't wanna spend the money on some frivolous toy. gawd i'm pathetic.

i made some muffins from a really easy mix. they don't taste all that great ^_^ii, but i guess they're better than the last ones that i made from scratch. tomorrow i'll make brownies from scratch? assuming i can find all needed ingredients....

i FREAKING finally found my stupid socks. i've beeen looking and looking and looking all over in the garage and i couldn't find the the damn place that i'd stashed my socks when we moved. i'm so glad i won't have to wear emily's socks anymore. now...if only i could find my shoes?

because i'm always going out with matilda recently, i've gotten very dark on my forearms because i always wear a t-shirt. and it doesn't seem like my face tans very easily. michael says that that's nothing compared to how dark he's gotten, but i think that's an unfair comparison because he works down south under the sun and i'm just here. hiding under ever freakin' bit of shade i can find.

school starts soon. my mother says that it's good that my bed's so big (i have a full sized bed, whereas i use to have a twin) because next year when i move in with michael i can still use it. and MY reaction is "WHAT?" apparently she expects me to move in with michael when i graduate from college. and that's like in a year or so. (undergrad, at least.) eeekk.....that's kinda fast. it's like driving home that fact that i'm not a teenager anymore. but then by then we've been dating for seven years....SEVEN YEARS!!
sooner or later we'll start to resemble the couple in "american gothic." yikes. and i think michael expects it too... why...i hear south america's beautiful this time of year....don't look for me.

recently my co-workers at the library all told me that they thought i was still 18/19 years old. and my supervisor referred to emily as my "older sister." just when i thought i was looking a little bit more mature, people tell me that i'm the youngest sister and that i'm still not allowed to drink at bars.... i guess i'll always be forever young...

once again

plus, i also seem kinda moody lately. i think it's because of my period because i don't think i'm usually very moody. kinda depressed and grouchy. mostly it's directed towards my niece though. so maybe i'm just a little tired of taking care of her? every day when i'm not at work. i'm expected to take care of her. the expectations that are piled on me are getting kinda old. and i'm tired. i guess it is my period. or have i always been this pessimistic?
i told michael the other day that i didn't really have a goal in life and therefore had no motivation to further my education quickly. that english as my major is just a easy way out. that becoming a librarian is just something to do. that i don't have any big goals in life except to live... that my college career and my chosen profession is just something i chose because it was the right time and the expected choice. that i fear becoming some kind of person who just floats in life. and i envy the people who have the burning urge to do something with their life. do people have to push themselves to want to do something with their life? or do people just effortlessly want?
when i told michael this, he just seemed kinda flabbergasted. he told me to find something i wanted to do...but what is that? shouldn't i know already? would i be able to forgive myself if i went on a long detour to find it? am i just that anal-retentive that everything has to be in a certain order and that order does not include life confusion? is that why i feel so apprehensive?
maybe i'm just sleepy.
oyasumi

omoshiro

waaah! i was watching dream live 3 on youtube and now they're doing a site construction thing, so i can't watch the next part....waaaah! it was very interesting! much more interesting than dream live 1. i've never seen 2. plus, the guy who plays atobe wears his leather pants very very well. mmm...sexy... sigh...
we're finally moving all of our stuff to the new house on saturday, but shawn and i today moved a lot of crap over there. i can't believe how much stuff we can stuff into those closets. it was very fun. and now my room is pretty empty.
i was packing away my manga and i was so nervous!! i didn't want to be parted from it even tho it would only be a couple of days. oh. shit. i just realized i packed away my batteries.....uuwah!!! crap...
i don't really wanna move into the same room as emily. for one thing, it'll really curtail my nocturnal activities. and that sucks like crazy. plus, they might make me leave the laptop in the living room/computer room. so i can't read yaoi freely until they allll go into deep sleep. also, there are the embarassing things that i watch...like tenipuri or my anime...when i act like a typical fanfreak....sooo i'll also have to curtail my "skkkreeee/kyaaaa" reaction. gawd...that'll be hard.
but i guess the thing i hate most, is the fact that i'll be able to masturbate much much less. i mean....i do that practically every night....ever since....middle school. but suddenly going cold turkey......*whimper*
mmm.....maybe i'll hide downstairs....with my (one) yaoi manga....sigh.... that'll be very cold, but at least it'll be in peace...maybe i can print my favorite scanalations? crap....w/o variety, i think i'll die...
i'm thinking of buying another one from the same author because i read that it was very graphic. i was kinda hestitant before because it wasn't very well known and it sounded kinda shounen-ai.

jeez

registered for classes!! dammit! they're all english classes!! i'm gonna get bogged down with a million essays.. pray for me *whimper*

toonami jetstream

toonami jetstream is an online website that allows you to watch dubbed anime episodes for free sponsored by two american cartoon companies. it shows a new episode once a week, i think. it downloads pretty fast on my connection. i watched hikaru no go and prince of tennis. it's WEIRD hearing the japanese names with an english accent!! it's not so bad for some names, but for others (namely the ones that have a "r") it's downright strange. ryoma (pronounced lee-o-ma becomes rye-o-ma (rye as in rye bread))

the quality is pretty good. but as always....the girl voices alway drive me up the wall...

all in all....it's more worth it to go to youtube and watch all the fansubbed episodes in an insane marathon. and you get the original voices. and you get the original translation. and the original opening and ending. and things aren't lost in translation. like "mada mada dane," which really should have been kept...because it's his catchphrase for heaven's sake. when the ignorant american-dubbed PoT fans go to cons they'll totally alienate themselves from the fansubbers and the original trendjumpers. haha, suckers.

looking at the first north american corporation sponsored anime website, you can totally tell where the american anime market is directed. at the young boys. i'm wondering if they're aware of the fact that PoT, despite it's sport subject, has huge power in gathering a gigantic female fan-base? they probably know, but i guess it's hard to push it in this culture. hrrmm...oh well.

on the other hand, manga is probably more directed towards females. i mean....look at tokyopop. so i guess the teenage american culture says that boys are glued to the tv and girls read? and practically all the manga readers at the library are girls. there are the one or two boys out there... but they are very very rare.

lalala

nothing much to say, although i am very proud of the fact that i am reading chinese mangas with the usage of a old old dictionary. my sister called me psycho and obsessive, but i call that mind-numbing dedication. sometimes i still don't get the phrases that they use, but i am able to understand the gist of it, so i don't have to go all the way to borders or wait a long time before they are released by an american company.
right now i am reading Hikaru no Go, and it's actually a lot of fun unless i just can't find the word i'm looking for. in which case i go beserk.

tactics

since i absolutely can't find anywhere to gripe about the anime i just finished, i'll just do it here. the uninterested should just go somewhere else. i just finished Tactics and while it was certainly lacking in a cohesive plot that spanned the whole 25 episodes that it took up, it was a nice thing to watch. they used 12 episodes to do nothing whatsoever, except show the deepening bond between kantarou and haruka (which i might add, they did rather clumsily. but what the hey, they're hot.)

finally, when they present some form of plot, their antagonists are rather slip-shoddily put together. in the end, they stay rather shallow and pointless. i mean, there were characters who were never mentioned again or even used. what's up with that? AND the ending left it very open ended, like there was going to be a second season. but there has been no sign of it anywhere. it's only been a year and a half, but...since there's been no gossip, i guess there's nothing on the way...

i think haruka's angst and pain was crammed into the last five episodes like crazy and then a solution to his doubts were suddenly shoved into place. a very shallow and superficial band-aid, that seemed to require no contemplation. maybe it was so subtle that i missed it...

I was hoping that the manga might be better, but the rumors have said that the manga is worse than the anime. *whimper* crap. oh well ^_^ii

right now i'm wondering if i should burn the series...or if it'll just be a waste of space and time? but the problem is that i've grow very attached to the characters and i don't think i can quite part with them just yet. ichinomiya kantarou was a particularly interesting character because he was drawn like a typical character that would be the "sissy," but his personality is wonderfully colorful and i loooooove him so much. he's not the usual airheaded, oblivious, carefree protagonist that you'd expect. he's smart, observant, tactful, childish, and a money-grubbing bastard. there are moments where he's just too cool. he was so different just by the fact that he was so powerful and able to wield that power so expertly.

nuts

you know what's been driving me nuts for the past two hours? the fact that one of my favorite mangakas has two names which she seems to use almost randomly. Zaou Taishi and Tsuda Mikiyo are the same person--or at least that's what i've worked out from the various bits and pieces from the internet. and i was thinking that maybe it was because one name writes yuri and the other writes yaoi...but that's not really the case either, i don't think. Zaou Taishi is definitely yaoi and i saw references that Tsuda was yuri, but that's not the case either. the only yuri-esque thing i could find was a boy pretending to be a girl being hit on by other guys, but having the ability to have a lesbian(?!) relationship with a girl..... ye-ah...right...
AND another name which is connected on the website and they have also collaborated on works is Eiki Eiki. what is their relationship? curiouser and curiouser...

bwahahah!

i just read something that surprised the heck out of me: in taipei they are opening a pokemon themed amusement park.....i never ever thought that pokemon was popular enough to warrant its own theme park, but apparently someone thought it was promising enough to go and finance. you can read about it in the anime link i have. it's not even a museum, which would have been respectable (like the studio ghibli museum in Japan), it features rides or something. shocking.

"hey kids! let's go ride pikachu!"

I was reading the works list of one of the seiyuus in anime "tactics" and i remember some writer said that the only memorable thing he was in was some obscure(read: bad) anime. AND the worst part is that he has a looooooong list of anime works that he was in. And the worst worst part is that he was only a minor character in almost all of them. ^_^ it's almost enough to make you cry.

another thing that scared the living shit out of me was the works list of another seiyuu. Motoko Kumai is the seiyuu for Li Syaoran in CardcaptorSakura. That voice is lower, raspy boy voice that's so popular. AND THEN she's the voice of Sumomo in Chobits.....Sumomo's the high pitched hyper active crazy doll...the difference in sound is breathtaking... it's shocking the transformations that the actors go through to fit the character that they are suppose to be ....

urrgh...

waauugghh.... i just read up on the things that i need in order to go to grad school at sjsu. i need:
1) bacholar's degree in something
2)to apply
3)a GRE score of 1000+ (550+ in verbal and 3.5+ in analytical, out of a score of 800 and 6 respectively)

and believe it or not, i'm incredibly nervous. i didn't worry so much about my SAT's or AP's, but because it's been such a long time since i took a standarized test (read: math). i'm not so worried about the english or the essay, but i'm terrified that my math score will drag everything down... ^_^ii but honestly i'm a little nervous about my english, but i think it'll go okai...i hope. *hyperventilates* i guess i'm gonna borrow those GRE books from the library to get a better understanding of what i'm gonna be dealing with... or bother rosa, she probably has a better idea...

haha, i remember for the academic decathlon, my math score was....i think, 300 or lower out of 800. it might have even been in the 100's, but i don't really remember. but then, there was a ridiculous amount of calculus. the funny part was, that in my senior year, my math score wasn't the lowest out of the whole team.

i'm currently writing a fan fic for PoT involving a hot day and a unique use of ice. and it's gonna be extremely explicit...haha...i was thinking about it during work and it was very very distacting to think about it.... i've realized how extremely perverted i can be, one example is when i was shelfreading. i had my hands up against the shelves at arms length and my legs at shoulder width--almost like a "against the wall and spread them" kind of stance and i just thought "how interesting it would be to be groped in this position without making a noise and alerting the surrounding patrons." sent chills down my spine. dirty dirty amy.

the last temptation

i just read "the last temptation" by neil gaiman and i found it incredibly shallow for a gaiman comic. horribly short and superficial. i kept waiting for things to fall into that fuzzy, gray area sort of morality that he likes to lead his readers, but it ended simply and stupidly. for a book about "temptation" the protagonist didn't seem to really be tempted by the magician at all. it didn't make me think or comtemplate the bigger picture in the meaning of life. if you wanna read something that's absolutely beautiful and horrible at the same time--read "murder mysteries", also by gaiman. i was horrified at the ending of that book, but i've read it two or three times over. the story just keeps calling me back.
i played badminton today and tennis yesterday, and now i feel that....badminton's for sissies.... i played badmition for one hour and that didn't get me as tired as one hour of tennis. all i did was sweat a lot because the gym was damn hot. but it's really a lot of fun because it's easier to keep a volley going because of the way the birdie is light and easier to control.

quincy archer hates you

somehow, ishida just seems so much sexier in the manga....much much much sexier...at least in book 3 he does.... or maybe it's because i keep imagining him with a huge wang? doh! bad amy! down girl!

i still can't find a male protagonist for my manga....dammit! i have his attitude down more than i have his appearance....oh well... ^_^ i'm glad i'm not too serious about this.... but i think the story will go along the lines of a love story between a living girl and a ghost boy? and because of my lack of stamina it'll probably be only an oneshot... but i'll have finally made something with my talents(apparent lack of).

also i really wanna draw something perverted involving me, michael, some rope, and his cell phone. i mean he won't let me do it, so i'll just live it vicariously through my drawings.... sigh....hehheh...some time ago i read an article that a mangaka wrote about her process of drawing something that's sexually explicit...it was hilarious... you should read it, i'll lend it to you...

ehh~~!!!

i'm looking up poisonous plants because the mystery that i'm reading mentions that a lot of houseplants are poisonous. and it looks like they are, but it seems that most of them you have to ingest in great quantities....but there are some that you should never ever eat that i recgonized even tho i'm such a idiot with plants.

like Azaleas(which are practically everywhere and maybe fatal) and calla lilies (which are also ubiquitous and fatal) and baby's breath(which are those flowers which are used in cheap bouquets, they cause minor skin irritation apparently) and crocus (i'm glad the ones i tried to grow died..^_^sigh.. who needs a potentially fatal plant anyway) and the foxglove (there are lots at the library--need to bump someone off?)

imagine trying to kill someone with a poisonous plant that needs to be eaten in LARGE QUANTITIES "it's okai dear, have some more hydrangea salad. in fact eat all of it...and top it off with some hydrangea tea..." and then find out it only causes explosive diarrhea and multicolored vomiting... "doh!" hey..there are lotsa hydrangeas at school...hey rosa, wanna go on a culinary adventure?
the picture is of hydrangeas...

ehh?

i just read "atashi wa bambi" and it was the weirdest thing in the whole wide world... see a guy(yaezou) and a girl(mai) both like the same guy(sen), but that sen likes someone else. in the end, yaezou and mai ends up together in a relationship and sen gets the girl that he likes. even though i felt the chemistry between mai and yae, it still felt like a clumsily tacked together ending. esp. since yae has been gay(now bi, i guess...) and crushing on sen for many many years... the span of the book only took a couple of months....is it really really that easy to fall in and out of love? what the hell? but on the other hand, i really loved yaezou as a character, he was the special adorable mischievous boy that i loooooove in a shojo manga. though i felt that the characters could really have been fleshed out as people, the series only spanned three volumes, so many it wasn't so bad... i think the author also wrote "aishitereuze baby," and i also felt that that manga failed to reach full depth...sigh...but honestly...who am i to criticize?

i STILL can't find the perfect male protagonist to my amateur manga...the hair's not right....the eyes...are okai....the build's wrong....i have bits and pieces of personality...but....it's not going good! dammit! i think i'll just change her to a girl and make the story about two lesbians....that's sooooooo much easier to draw....but i reallly wanted a guy...but girls are sooo much easier to draw. i have one right now that i drew and i think it's absolutely cute...i guess i should post?

i also saw the anime "night shift nurses," and it was the grossest hentai anime that i ever saw...there was a lot of scat/blood play and i'm not into that....it kinda unnerved me...ew ew ew ew....that was the first time i ever really felt the need to lysol my laptop. gross gross gross gross... i deleted it so fast....but on the other hand, one good thing from this is that i got a new media player which can play ogg files, and "almost every bit of media under the sun". i'm glad, now i don't have to worry....for now...

eh..

i just read that episode 8 of Ouran high (someone's gotta find a nickname for that series) DOES NOT have nekozawa-kun in it...i'm devastated..he's one of my favorite characters cause he's got a couple of funny chapters....and he's just a idiot XD kya!! "your smile looks more mysterious than a flower in the moonlight, yes, you.....LOOK AS EVIL AS A CURSED WAX DOOOLL"
oh well...just a little disappointed...

i'm looking for a raspberry brownie recipe and i just can't seem to find one like the one i use to make, which i thought was pretty good. actually i can't seem to find that many recipes...i guess it's not that popular? ^_^ sigh... i could experiment, but i think that's a bit dangerous for such a novice like me...haha *insert image of nuclear explosion* i want to make one where the raspberry jam/jelly/mush is inside the brownie rather than have the brownie served on top of some syrup thing... mmm...i'm starting to drool....

i took a really hard nap today. i woke up and i was nauseated and stiff. i just can't seem to take naps and it just hurts when i do and i feel disoriented and crappy. why do i do it? answer: cuz i'm a idiot to the nth degree. i was also drooling profusely. it was like a river had splurted from my mouth and was threatening to flood my room...eww.. gross... i just can't take graceful naps.

i cleared all the extraneous paper from my room and dumped it into the recycling bin as my celebration that the school semester was over!! woohoo! gawd...i think i had a whole forest... i wonder if prof. bernstein ever feels bad for speeding the rate of clear cutting of our old growth forests? i bet the tree sprites are plotting a plan to remove that crazy xeroxing lady...

god..my hair's gone all psycho on me... my bangs are too long and it's totally sticking out...and everything else is all frizzy. i love my hair straightener, it makes my hair....tolerable..

hello

you have to see this....interesting watches
I like Radioactive, but i'd probably go insane trying to figure out the stupid time...

hekko~~!!!
i'm at work again, but i'm early so i'm hiding back here because no one's using this computer. much luc-ky!! i finally got my book order from amazon it's "brother" and i'm totally expecting some perv-y action going on, but's totally boy on boy action. hey rosa, wanna borrow? it'll be totally fun!
speaking of homosexual action...i tried watching strawberry panic which is a new yuri anime from japan, but i'm decided that i'll just not interested in stuff like that. it's at times like these that i realized how incredibly straight i am... ;D

i was wandering around on animesuki, and i saw that PoT had become licensed and taken off the site. as happy as i am that they are getting commercial American attention, i breathed a HUGE sigh of relief that i downloaded and finished the series before it became licensed. thank god i didn't have to have a nervous breakdown at the sight of that dreaded "licensed" stamp.

I also saw that XXXholic had become licensed and frankly, i felt that that anime was a trifle overrated. it certainly didn't deserve the anticipation that i felt. the manga is so much better in terms of plot and pacing. Also....watanuki is just too annoying as an animated character. he's tolerable in drawn form, but....i just feel like smacking him around...i guess that's why yuko-san gets such a kick out of tormenting him..... XD

school's pretty much over, i have only one final. i'll probably end up getting a b- in that class. ^_^ it's a music class for chrissake, but who would have thought that there was soooooooo much to remember. at least there'll be no Brill Building songwriters in the final. i get the feeling that trying to remember them was my downfall in the midterm...like a shot in the foot!

hurrah!

waaaah!!

*weep* weep*sob*sniffle* rosa, you're the best.... you rock....u're my favorite person in the whole wide world.......thank you for sending me that link at boxtorrents, i've never tried that website before.....i looooove you......thank you thank you.....i'm never going to get any sleep....i'd do anything for you at this moment.....i'll make you brownies.....i'm still not watching kannazuki no miko .... hehe .... maybe...

hehe...i know i'm psychotic, but it's okai. is it bad that rather than getting drunk for my birthday, i'd rather sit in my room and read manga? it was a bad book too....no sex and a confusing emotional plot...but the worst part is the lack of sex. sex could have made it better or a good plot might have made it better. but since the manga had neither, it didn't really appeal. "only the ring finger knows"... my ass...

ahem...on the topic of fingers, i'd like to talk about what i spent a huge chunk of my evening doing...soo shawn, emily, and me were trying to think of phrases to replace the phrase "digital manipulation" (the act of masturbation using fingers) because he felt that "digital" sounded like something you'd do with Photoshop or something... soo...after a few flops, emily came up with "finger fornication" and that was the best one we'd heard all night. it was hilarous for me and shawn, but i think emily was wondering what the hell she was doing participating with a bunch of perverted idiots. soo...i guess when i'm super bored i'll try thinking up more... like the doofus i am.

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this is baaaaaaaaaaaaaaa~d. i just find a site that has lotsa rajipuri translations and downloads.... it's almost 1:00 in the morning, but...i can't pull myself away.... honto omoshiro-ne....

u~~~wahh!!

i was watching umm.. Tsubasa Chronicles and i realized that the seiyuu for Ryuu is the same one for echizen ryoma--minigawa junko. and i was soooo happy!! i think it's the emotions which i associate for her voice, but it was really nice to hear her voice. and i also saw that she does ritsuka on Loveless. which makes sense...... the reason it was very nice was because Ryoma and Ritsuka are both characters are are very reticent, but ryuu was pretty talkative and i never ever got to hear her talk so much. also she just has a really nice voice for a young male protagonist. it's really funny because she's really a girl... ^_^ii. it's a kinda high voice, but with a raspy quality to it that makes it perfect for yelling in a determined manner. It kinda reminds of of ed elric's from FMA. that's a really nice voice too.
she sings really nicely too, i've heard some of her songs from the PoT cds, and they sound pretty good. i've comtemplating buying it, but...that'll be importing and it'll probably cost an arm and a leg so i'd rather shoot myself. do~h...

happy birthday to me~~

lalalala~~~i'm at the library right now and i've got nothing whatsoever to do because it is before work and i'm just taking up this computer and feeling slightly guilty because someone might need this computer and i'm just using it to write pointless blatherings to float around in cyberspace. gee...that was all one sentence. i bet there are tons of grammatical mistakes in there. i guess it doesn't really matter...cuz it's not english class. i'm so bored.

i bought another manga today, but it was because it was my birhtday and i had a coupon and a old gift card so i only had to pay 1.66. in coins. haha. i so did not wanna break that twenty for a measly 1.66. i'm so glad i'm a change-hog. and i only bought one manga. hooray for restraint!

bluuuurgh....

i think my cold is finally releasing it's grip, but i wish i could say the same for my nose...i had another bloody nose today, but this time at work. THANK GOD it was during the night shift and there was no one in the workroom so i could bleed to my bloody content. also...my ears feel like crap. like someone has taken a stick and stabbed it repeatedly into my ears. it hurts when i swallow.... Elaine said from now on when i feel the slightest sick, my ears will hurt. dear god, am i aging? god forbid.
I just placed an order for emily's late-late-late birthday present, but i'm glad i held out and kept searching for it because it is totally cute!!! cute!!! cute!!! at least i think it's cute. i also placed a order for three mangas...and i feel totally guilty...but at the same time i'm thinking "hooray manga! i love you tamaki-sama! you're not a total idiot!" it's actually a lot of money to spend!! =*D damn! how do people support vices like this?
but i guess it's okai, i mean what am i gonna do with the money i DON'T spend? i've been hoarding money like crazy, but why? for a house? other people my age aren't. and technically i'm not getting a house... for something..but what? my retirement? my dream wedding? (hah!) What am i saving for? i don't want a car....i don't want trendy clothing....i don't have anywhere i particularly wanna go....umm... i guess i'm saving for a rainy day...should it ever occur... am i just saving money because that's what i'm expected to do? life's become some brainwashed attempt to hoard those beautiful flat bits of green paper? gawd...it makes me sound like a klepto-squirrel... but i guess i'll keep doing it...there's gotta be some reason... a-hah! i'm saving for my future! whatever that may be..
i just got my journal back from my lit class and he said that if i contributed something important to class (i.e. talk) he'll bump my grade from an A- to A....well HAH! i'm not gonna open my mouth! just thinking about it makes me break out in cold sweat...scary....can't do it at all... gyah...
hmm....oh look! it's may 10th! 12:58 am! i've been 21 years old for 58 minutes!! huzzah! geez louise... am i gonna hafta grow up? i can't believe it. i'm 21. 21. it felt like it took forever, but why do i think the next decade or so will fly by? i always think back to that calvin and hobbes strip when calvin wonders why adults always say "slow down" when there's so much in the world to do. so he says when he gets older he'd to do things faster and faster. and that by the time he's 40 he'll be like a hummingbird on crack (or something to that effect ^_^ii gomen)
haha.. sleepy time now. nite nite

saaaaaaaaaaaaave meeeeeee

gawd, i'm so tired! i'm cleaning my room and there's so much freeeeking stuff! i cleared this huge empty space on one side of my room and it looked sooo nice that i thought "that's it, i'm throwing everything out and living a minimalist life", but then....i looked at what i'd be throwing away...MY FOXTROT, CALVIN AND HOBBES, and FARSIDE comic books......and i thought "the dust must be getting to me." i'd kill myself before i threw away my comic books. really tho, i'm so tired.

today i went for a walk and had a spectacularly bloody nose. it was drippy and painful because i was holding my nose up in an desperate attempt to keep blood offa my clothes even tho i know that i was suppose to put my head down. My throat still feels like it's trying to rip itself outta my neck. thanks for caring. when i swallow i feel the pain travel from my throat to my eardrums. augh... the pain...the pain.... It was really funny because i was walking with my sister and my mom and when i started to bleed. my sister was frantically torn between following my mom and watching over me. see, my mom' s nightblind and liable to crash into poles and such, but so stubborn nothing less than a......well, nothing can stop her and we're the only ones that can steer her out of her own way. so emily was torn between whether to follow my mom who might crash and injure herself, or to stay with me who was bleeding so profusely. haha--she finally called the house and got them to meet my mom so she could stay with me.

today i got more reminders that my relationship might be going to hell in a headbasket. my sisters said that michael was asking for advice from them rather than me because apparently I don't care. that's what he told them.... it really makes me sound like a really bad girlfriend and it's so depressing...sigh... and THEN my mom got on my case because i said that i wasn't going to michael's sister's wedding....I don't see a point of going because i'll just look like a huge idiot lump of flesh taking up the seat. people often say that my neutral face looks like i'm pissed off, so...if i go and feel bored and neutral, people are gonna think i'm angry. BUT... if i don't go i won't be creating a good relationship between myself and michael's family. sigh.... but if i do go, i'll make a really really bad impression because the setting (foreign language and people i don't know) will bring out the worst in me. i'm dooooooomed....maybe i can set myself on fire and i won't have to go....where's my lighter?

wah...but honestly, lately i'd been feeling a little distant from him. maybe it's because i haven't seen him often for the past couple of weeks. Maybe i'm lashing out at his sister's wedding because it's taking time away from me and i'm just jealous? i've already thought about that possibility and i guess it's much plausible. hrmm... i told rosa the other day that i wouldn't feel much if i broke up with michael, actually i think i said "i don't know how i'd react if michael and me broke up." but i think that's just because i haven't seen him often. i'm not the type of person who thinks absence makes the heart grow fonder. it's making me worried, but honestly, i think it'll be okai.

lalala

i was bored and kinda curious, so i did this and i guess it's pretty easy... but it doesn't seem like it lets you put animated pictures from your computer up (like in xanga)...boohoo... i tried with something small, but it won't work... sigh...


this is how i feel now, his laughter is probably something close to how i'm cackling right now. if my throat didn't feel like it was trying to rip itself out of my neck. sigh...swallowing my own saliva hurts, dammit! I'm gonna start drooling instead...*drools*
This clip always always makes me crack up, i mean, he's such an idiot. heh heh wiggly fingers of evil.
I had something pressing to say a hour ago, but now....i don't remember what it was....i think i'm glad i'm such an absent minded idiot...nothing stays for long.....lalalalala
man i really need to pee!!

hello!

first post! go amy~~! you rock girl!