i was wondering where all the gigs on my laptop went, since i already burned/deleted all that was unnecessary from my torrent list and i still only have 13gb of free memory. sooo...i looked at the next possible suspect, my pictures file which contains my yaoi, negi, naruto, various porno, and miscellaneous manga....damn! it takes up 5gb's on my laptop... i can't believe it....
wahah! i have five positive reviews!
Sunday, August 27, 2006
Saturday, August 26, 2006
yikes
ggggggggggyyyaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!! school's almost starting!!! no more slacking off!!! i'm gonna have to wake up earlier!!! but there ain't no way in hell that i'm sleeping earlier. it's. just. not. possible.SOoOoOoOoOo...i finally posted part one of my yaoi PoT fanfiction and it's received two positive reviews!! after reading it over, i realize....that my freakin fictional characters have a more interesting sex life than i do. michael has limits to what i can do to his body.....drat. so, if you, my sporadic reader, wish to read it, i'll post a link.
DISCLAIMER: you are not interested in two guys having horny sex, then you should not go to PoT
i have the work schedule that i need now, so i can take all the classes that i need. Eric took my afternoon shift and i appreciate it very very much. but on the other hand, i have to wonder, what was he doing in the afternoon on wednesdays with so much time on his hands? i'm glad i don't have to hunt for more classes or wrangle with my schedule anymore. so now i work M-W from 4-9. a very regular schedule. i like it because i get the extra dollar/hr for working a night shift. so now i'll be earning 400+ dollars for 30 hrs. hurrah!!
Sunday, August 20, 2006
hello!
someone had put "sennen no yuki" on the download forums and that makes me absolutely happy. now i don't have to go on irc to download it. woohoo! i've been wanting to read that ever since i found out that hatori bisco had written another one.
school starts really soon and it looks like no one is willing or able to cover for me during the hours that i wouldn't be able to show up at work. ahh...dammit. guess i'll just have to not go to class on wednesdays or something....yeah.. ^_^iii
i've finally finally started to draw my own comic and it's....hard. very hard trying to get the right flow of things and being able to draw what you want the way you want. also, it's a little distracting to draw things on notebook paper, i guess when i do the final draft i'll actually have to go out and get some kind of art paper? but, but it's only going to be some silly doujinshi, so maybe i'll not spend so much money on it. hehheh.... and i wonder if i'll have the guts to show anyone? i'll be very proud of my work (if i ever finish), but it'll probably be very easy to shoot me down... <----insert image of nosediving airplane.
i just told my little sister that i might be moving out and in with michael in like a year and a half and she said "it feels like i'm losing another one..." and i guess that's true. but on the other hand, i don't want to move in with him because it's just something that's suppose to happen. what i mean is: i don't want to be taken for granted. like it's the next given step in the process of life. he's been asking me to move in with him since forever, and i want him to convince me that he wants to be together that badly. and why can't i shrug it off like the last couple of times. am i complicating things? yeah...i am. is it the insecurities and uncertainties which i feel towards our relationship? definitely. will they ever be resolved or will i be able to accept that our relationship has its share of flaws and problems? i dunno. do i care? not now...maybe later...
school starts really soon and it looks like no one is willing or able to cover for me during the hours that i wouldn't be able to show up at work. ahh...dammit. guess i'll just have to not go to class on wednesdays or something....yeah.. ^_^iiii've finally finally started to draw my own comic and it's....hard. very hard trying to get the right flow of things and being able to draw what you want the way you want. also, it's a little distracting to draw things on notebook paper, i guess when i do the final draft i'll actually have to go out and get some kind of art paper? but, but it's only going to be some silly doujinshi, so maybe i'll not spend so much money on it. hehheh.... and i wonder if i'll have the guts to show anyone? i'll be very proud of my work (if i ever finish), but it'll probably be very easy to shoot me down... <----insert image of nosediving airplane.
i just told my little sister that i might be moving out and in with michael in like a year and a half and she said "it feels like i'm losing another one..." and i guess that's true. but on the other hand, i don't want to move in with him because it's just something that's suppose to happen. what i mean is: i don't want to be taken for granted. like it's the next given step in the process of life. he's been asking me to move in with him since forever, and i want him to convince me that he wants to be together that badly. and why can't i shrug it off like the last couple of times. am i complicating things? yeah...i am. is it the insecurities and uncertainties which i feel towards our relationship? definitely. will they ever be resolved or will i be able to accept that our relationship has its share of flaws and problems? i dunno. do i care? not now...maybe later...
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
i just saw the weirdest weirdest thing regarding anime and live-action. so if you're not interested, tough. i watched "princess princess" anime and while i had high expectations for the author because i've read her work, it was still an interesting watch even if it lacked trademark characteristics. BUT now it seems that there is a live-action interpretation of the anime called "Puri Puri D"...and it sounds like it's a little bit more sexual (hmm...wrestling scene). on one hand i'm looking forward to it, on the other.... egad, i've read some baaaaaaad reviews of it. and i don't know how i'll take real live humans doing the yaoi thing...gawd....that sounds really homophobic...
but on the other hand, i think two humans of whatever sex combination, making out, really makes me uncomfortable. i guess i have problems with pda. i just don't know where to look....
sometimes i think i need a break from the family. but i don't feel justified in saying things like that because elaine has to be here all the time too. so then i feel guilty for feeling this way. i wish they would just go somewhere for a couple of days so i won't feel like i'm responsible for this or that. but then, i have no where to go. i don't have friends who want to go anywhere. i don't have a burning desire to go or do anything by myself. i don't even wanna go shopping because that'll make me wanna buy things and i don't wanna spend the money on some frivolous toy. gawd i'm pathetic.
i made some muffins from a really easy mix. they don't taste all that great ^_^ii, but i guess they're better than the last ones that i made from scratch. tomorrow i'll make brownies from scratch? assuming i can find all needed ingredients....
i FREAKING finally found my stupid socks. i've beeen looking and looking and looking all over in the garage and i couldn't find the the damn place that i'd stashed my socks when we moved. i'm so glad i won't have to wear emily's socks anymore. now...if only i could find my shoes?
because i'm always going out with matilda recently, i've gotten very dark on my forearms because i always wear a t-shirt. and it doesn't seem like my face tans very easily. michael says that that's nothing compared to how dark he's gotten, but i think that's an unfair comparison because he works down south under the sun and i'm just here. hiding under ever freakin' bit of shade i can find.
school starts soon. my mother says that it's good that my bed's so big (i have a full sized bed, whereas i use to have a twin) because next year when i move in with michael i can still use it. and MY reaction is "WHAT?"
apparently she expects me to move in with michael when i graduate from college. and that's like in a year or so. (undergrad, at least.) eeekk.....that's kinda fast. it's like driving home that fact that i'm not a teenager anymore. but then by then we've been dating for seven years....SEVEN YEARS!!
sooner or later we'll start to resemble the couple in "american gothic." yikes. and i think michael expects it too... why...i hear south america's beautiful this time of year....don't look for me.
recently my co-workers at the library all told me that they thought i was still 18/19 years old. and my supervisor referred to emily as my "older sister." just when i thought i was looking a little bit more mature, people tell me that i'm the youngest sister and that i'm still not allowed to drink at bars.... i guess i'll always be forever young...
but on the other hand, i think two humans of whatever sex combination, making out, really makes me uncomfortable. i guess i have problems with pda. i just don't know where to look....
sometimes i think i need a break from the family. but i don't feel justified in saying things like that because elaine has to be here all the time too. so then i feel guilty for feeling this way. i wish they would just go somewhere for a couple of days so i won't feel like i'm responsible for this or that. but then, i have no where to go. i don't have friends who want to go anywhere. i don't have a burning desire to go or do anything by myself. i don't even wanna go shopping because that'll make me wanna buy things and i don't wanna spend the money on some frivolous toy. gawd i'm pathetic.
i made some muffins from a really easy mix. they don't taste all that great ^_^ii, but i guess they're better than the last ones that i made from scratch. tomorrow i'll make brownies from scratch? assuming i can find all needed ingredients....
i FREAKING finally found my stupid socks. i've beeen looking and looking and looking all over in the garage and i couldn't find the the damn place that i'd stashed my socks when we moved. i'm so glad i won't have to wear emily's socks anymore. now...if only i could find my shoes?
because i'm always going out with matilda recently, i've gotten very dark on my forearms because i always wear a t-shirt. and it doesn't seem like my face tans very easily. michael says that that's nothing compared to how dark he's gotten, but i think that's an unfair comparison because he works down south under the sun and i'm just here. hiding under ever freakin' bit of shade i can find.
school starts soon. my mother says that it's good that my bed's so big (i have a full sized bed, whereas i use to have a twin) because next year when i move in with michael i can still use it. and MY reaction is "WHAT?"
apparently she expects me to move in with michael when i graduate from college. and that's like in a year or so. (undergrad, at least.) eeekk.....that's kinda fast. it's like driving home that fact that i'm not a teenager anymore. but then by then we've been dating for seven years....SEVEN YEARS!!sooner or later we'll start to resemble the couple in "american gothic." yikes. and i think michael expects it too... why...i hear south america's beautiful this time of year....don't look for me.
recently my co-workers at the library all told me that they thought i was still 18/19 years old. and my supervisor referred to emily as my "older sister." just when i thought i was looking a little bit more mature, people tell me that i'm the youngest sister and that i'm still not allowed to drink at bars.... i guess i'll always be forever young...
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