hello!

someone had put "sennen no yuki" on the download forums and that makes me absolutely happy. now i don't have to go on irc to download it. woohoo! i've been wanting to read that ever since i found out that hatori bisco had written another one.

school starts really soon and it looks like no one is willing or able to cover for me during the hours that i wouldn't be able to show up at work. ahh...dammit. guess i'll just have to not go to class on wednesdays or something....yeah.. ^_^iii




i've finally finally started to draw my own comic and it's....hard. very hard trying to get the right flow of things and being able to draw what you want the way you want. also, it's a little distracting to draw things on notebook paper, i guess when i do the final draft i'll actually have to go out and get some kind of art paper? but, but it's only going to be some silly doujinshi, so maybe i'll not spend so much money on it. hehheh.... and i wonder if i'll have the guts to show anyone? i'll be very proud of my work (if i ever finish), but it'll probably be very easy to shoot me down... <----insert image of nosediving airplane.

i just told my little sister that i might be moving out and in with michael in like a year and a half and she said "it feels like i'm losing another one..." and i guess that's true. but on the other hand, i don't want to move in with him because it's just something that's suppose to happen. what i mean is: i don't want to be taken for granted. like it's the next given step in the process of life. he's been asking me to move in with him since forever, and i want him to convince me that he wants to be together that badly. and why can't i shrug it off like the last couple of times. am i complicating things? yeah...i am. is it the insecurities and uncertainties which i feel towards our relationship? definitely. will they ever be resolved or will i be able to accept that our relationship has its share of flaws and problems? i dunno. do i care? not now...maybe later...